✨ My poems ✨

Poems I’ve done, migrated from my twitter post. Updated at Feb 9th, 2024.

Invisible ghosts

behind those eyes, hidden deep inside

is a darker shade of what they tryna hide

a dark shade full of demons

invisible demons

they’ve been fighting them for ages

they cant let it control them

must be strong

and most of the times, they dont let the demons out

surrounding their feelings

slowly, being assassined from inside to outside

how do i be so strong

like you are?

its an endless battle

that they must win

someday, somehow

it will be all over, forever

adeus

é dificil pensar

que colegas que estiveram com você

desde o primario

simplismente fora embora

por incompetencia de um sistema

que te pressiona, oprime

tentam por agua oxigenada na ferida

esperando que tudo se resolva

panico, depressão, ansiedade

tudo isso, lentamente foi

matando aqueles que se foram

momentos que rapidamente, se foram

você aprende a dar valor quando perde

quando ama

quando gosta

o valor inimaginável de um colega de classe, perdido pela incompetencia do sistema.

彡96

listening to the same album

on repeat

playing the same song

again and again

as a wave in the wind

im still hearing sounds

time never stops

all your efforts are trashed

tears aren’t enough

days aren’t enough

not even rest is enough

when you’re down

i can hear you whispering inside

waiting for a light

im calling the void

“are you okay?”

solitaria

completamente solitaria

no passado, no presente, no futuro

apenas sozinha

comigo e meus pensamentos

como tornei amiga disso?

eu não gosto disso

não escolhi que as coisas fossem assim

mas elas sempre acabam assim

tenho culpa de tudo isso

o incerto que está certo

não tem como fugir

do que vive dentro de você

como as coisas acabam assim?

é uma incerteza

mas sei que ficarei solitaria

é uma certeza

knife party

how this could came to an end

something unique

between us

something special

sparkles doesnt glow anymore

the small point of faith fade

will it be the end

like that, dry and dust?

i wish you could talk to me

understand me

understand you

can we talk about?

sorry for this

sorry for letting you down

sorry for creating a friendship with you

all i wanted to say was sorry to you

bleed

distracted, another knife hit me

again, another knife

lets count them

one, two, three knives

3 knives, out of the many

all inside my body

thrown knives

thru my body

and im bleeding from some

others, i’ve already bleeded

but the last one.. still hurts me

i just want to do not be hurt again

demons

are they?

do they really care?

is it too much for them

right?

demons are getting stronger

unlike iself

it was only a weak and fateful scream

do i need pleh?

can we leave this battlefield

im enough of it

i cant fight anymore

but them wont stop

emptyness

feeling something new but old

its empty, like the void

a void created by myself

and im getting closer everyday

i’ve been fighting these aliens for so long

to get away from this void

the more i try

the more weapons they get

“we will help you” they say

but that empty void

was created by themselves

while i was asleep

to make me fight against demons

and these demons wont stop

‘til i die

they want my soul, my essence

they dont want myself

but a mask

easter special

series of 3 poems, for a friend.

rebecca

hey my dear, s lo w down a bit

im trying, trying to be myself

my head looks an a v ovado, trying to

to became something better

for u & me

sometim es i think too much

like a bittersweet feeling.

unsaved file at 2am

unsure if i should try again

give u more space,

unsure if thats right

give so mething better,

unsure if its over

please give me a sign, a light

from these unsure bittersweet feelings

1am

here alone

to my empty toughts

so much to handle

is this a dream?

to be with ya

the good and bad moments

all here w/ ya

wanna be the next easter

watching some citrus?

stupid

how could i be so stupid, oh

so stupid

i’ve been over here

rolling dices with aphrodite

since you left, my air was given to cigarettes

i try my best to forget

but you’re stuck here

and i cannot let you fade away from my memories

now, i have been drinking with cupid

thinking of you

thinking of what we had

how i could be so stupid?

i wish i still had you

i try to turn the page

i can’t erase your face

i can’t forget our memories

rainy

it’s sad and raining

do i love it?

hell yeah

but something isn’t right

another lace was disrupted

i’ve wasted their time again

will we even come back?

i wish we could so

it’s too new for me

having laces with someone

probably they’re right

and the prophecy is true

but if you want to go back

you know where to find me

either inside a computer

or inside my graveyard

rescue me

tired of everything being ill

maybe i am just cool

or i could just be

a borderline bitch

this endless war

are going too far

i’ve lost nothing

but everything

i wanna be loved

but its always too much

i’d take it all

to be again, normal

now shit has started

nothing to do about

even lost at this degree

would you rescue me?

found ya

blizzard, blizzard

let us down again

i never thought about being

zapped by you

edged from my existence

raindrops of pain all over my skin

you said you would never do this

but every life is a lie

if we were tied up

how did we broke up?

at least now im going

even after every snowflake

causing the void death

are you scared of blizzards too?

or i’ve faded in your memory?

i’ve found you again!

7-mar-2025

deep thoughts

i dont think know where i’ve been/

but that should be alright/

i’ve found peace in my mind again/

everything has a price, im afraid of/

honestly? i feel like im surviving/

not living my life/

not sure if the cost of things to be finally calm/

is to lost myself/

i miss my old friends, but do they miss me?/

can’t lie im glad you grow up/

but i cant deny that a part of me dislikes that/

since we are so far, so far apart again/

at least i hope things are fine between us/

‘cause you left me so broken/

but it’s so scary to be without you/

that i had to eat that damn frog.